by David Docusen | March 14, 2009 | Uncategorized
I joined the instant messaging party a bit late. I was well into college once I got an AIM account and I really missed all of the “IM jargon” that was sweeping the nation. Because of this I have found that I feel like a poser (yes, I said poser) if I use all of the typical abbreviations:
LOL – Laugh out loud
TTYL – Talk to you later
BRB – Be right back
The list goes on. I actually type out “hahahaha” when I’m laughing because I just can’t bring myself to use the lingo that I never embraced at the beginning. I feel better now. Confession time over.
by David Docusen | March 10, 2009 | Uncategorized
I can’t stop staring at Baby Ben.
He just turned 2 months old and he has captured my imagination. I was on the lazy boy this weekend holding him and watching his brothers and sisters play in the living room. It hit me that he will be there soon, running around with them, jumping off the couch, throwing toys in the kitchen trash can (Jack) and doing lots of kid stuff.
He’s already starting to hold his head up on his own and his smile lights up our lives. He has truly captured my heart.
by David Docusen | March 10, 2009 | Uncategorized
I realized something about myself today: I feel like its easier for me to believe these days. I am not sure how that will come across as you read that statement, but it makes a lot of sense to me.
When I first started on this journey of raising our salary, I could literally feel the pressure in my chest. I could feel the weight of the responsibility I had to my family to provide for them, to take care of them and simply pay the bills. Most people don’t know that I actually ended up on the doctor’s table getting an EKG because my chest was so tight. I was literally crumbling under the pressure. It was during this experience that God really spoke to me. I knew at that moment that I was holding on to the same burdens that he wants to take for me. I was holding them so tight that my body was literally responding by constricting.
I read Matthew 6 shortly thereafter and I decided to do something really crazy. I decided to believe.
Matthew 6:25-27 – 25 “That is why I tell you not to worry about everyday life—whether you have enough food and drink, or enough clothes to wear. Isn’t life more than food, and your body more than clothing? 26 Look at the birds. They don’t plant or harvest or store food in barns, for your heavenly Father feeds them. And aren’t you far more valuable to him than they are? 27 Can all your worries add a single moment to your life?
I find myself today in a very strange place. I genuinely believe. Every single month we start off with close to nothing in our salary account. I find myself deeply believing that God will provide. I find myself working instead of worrying.
From one angle (the natural), our lives have never been more on the edge. We’ve never been closer to the wheels coming off and the ride being over. We’ve never walked the tight rope quite so tight.
From the other angle (God’s perspective), we have never trusted more. We have never believed more. We have never genuinely put our faith on that same tight rope and kept on walking.
It seems that the tougher that has gotten, the easier it has become to trust God. He has not failed us. Not even in the worst recession in 50 years.
The tougher it looks, the easier it gets. How counter-intuitive is that?
by David Docusen | March 8, 2009 | Uncategorized
Today marked the beginning of Max and Mary’s first official baseball league. It was so much fun to head out there and work with them and their teammates on a game that I have loved my whole life. Max was really into the practice for the most part. Mary kept wandering off to play in the dirt and squirt her new water bottle.
We headed straight from there and celebrated Mary’s birthday one week late (because of the incredibly gross sickness they had last week). We met their cousin, Brooke, at Build-A-Bear Workshop. It was SO cute to see them so excited to pick out their stuffed animals and see the “come to life”.
We ended our evening by watching Madagascar with the kids. The conclusion of that movie brought on a huge dance party in the middle of the living room as we bounced all around singing “I like to move it, move it!” Great fun. So good to spend quality time with the family today.
I love being a husband and father.
by David Docusen | March 6, 2009 | Uncategorized
I have been racking my brain trying to figure out a way to find new music. Most of my new music comes from word of mouth, but I just found an awesome new outlet.
Pandora is a website that allows you to type in your favorite artist and then it chooses music similar to those artists. It then puts that music into a play list and you can tell it whether or not you like those songs. It then feeds your “personal radio station” songs that you like. I listened to this for a while today and came up with some great new songs that I’ll be able to use on Sundays at Hope.
You can set up several stations depending on your current mood. I set up a Desperation Band radio station and a Jason Mraz radio station recently. Pretty awesome.
